So this week we are to blog about what thoughts we brought up in our free writing.  I wrote about a few things but felt uncomfortable at first because I was automatically correcting my spelling and grammar as I went which I think stifles the creativity. Creativity is not my forte as I am more concerned about being honest and respected than being creative.  Fortunately for me, I am learning that it is equally as important to be creative and expressive than to say what you think a reader wants to hear. 

I wrote first about my work and how today was a difficult day because it was court day and there were cases that were complicated.  Some cases the court agreed with our recommendations and others he didn’t.  This can be hard to accept sometimes; however it is something that we must learn to do otherwise we are burdened with what we could’ve done differently and many times, it is who presents better or has the better representation or who the judge is and how his day is going.  I think what has helped me deal with this is to know I have done the best job I could with the resources and time I had to work with them.  The other thing that helps me deal with this is that I take each decision as a learning experience and if it doesn’t go my way then next time I’ll do better or I’ll understand my client’s better and be able to treat them differently. 

Another topic I wrote about was my mother.  She was the sweetest lady and beautiful to boot.  She had a sense of fun and enjoyed life, but she had demons too.  She mostly hid her troubles from me when I was younger but at some point she couldn’t hide them from anyone.  She retired early and drank more heavily and then her emotions got the better of her and she was unable to cope with life.  Although I was very involved in the troubles that plagued her, I choose to remember the good times, the fun times, and the times she herself would’ve chosen to remember.

Anyway, I enjoyed the free writing.  I was hesitant, but after going through it, I found I liked it.  It was liberating and for me that’s a rare and good thing.  This is a quote I found and I love it.  I think it sort of relates here.   What I thought when I saw it, is be creative, enjoy life, and go with the flow.